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The boy with the wishful eyes

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Back when the ponies ran, when the girls were young and the odds were there to beat, my little personal winning streak ended as it had begun, naturally, without my being aware of it.

Why me?

Why not someone else who deserved it?

My winning streak ended like a black-feathered bird bursting the sky had landed on me.

With no odds to beat left, the only thing I clearly see is my journey on a downward spiral.

It feels like in the dead of night. I’m at the steering wheel of a speeding car crashing down a steep ravine. Trees out of nowhere in the car’s headlights. With nothing left but a single wish, the wish to survive even if it costs me my life

down
down
down

After the crashing down comes to a halt, there’s nothing left but me and a gate Bob Dylan built.

Dylan’s gate

I’m on the outside of the gate.
On the inside is a devil my neighbors, preachers, and teachers want me to believe.
There’s nothing else and nobody else near, so I can tell what I’m supposed to believe is looking at me.
What does it want?
I have no clue.
Perhaps a piece of me?
Could it be my heart?

You think I’m kidding, aren’t you?
Well, I’m not kidding at all.
Instead, I do a u-turn never to re-turn again.
I’ve once seen a torero perform u-turns before a bull.
When the bull was dead I vomited wishing the torero were dead instead.
Such a u-turn I do now

run
run
run

I’m walking down the highway into a town ravaged by a thausand-years war.
I enter a burned-out house that looks familiar.
At the end of a blackened corridor, a burned-out room.
A boy looks out of a shattered glass window.
His back is turned to me.
Suitcase on the floor.

away
away
away

Guided by ignorance, I walk up to him and hold his hand in mine.
He’s looking at me with wishful eyes.
I can clearly see his eyes are mine.
We’re one and the same.
Together we step into street flooded in lightyears of energy from the sun above

thankful

I can clearly see things from different perspectives now.
See the wishful, see what is.
If there’s a difference between religion and the bird, believe the bird.
For birds don’t have religion/s.
They wouldn’t know it if you showed it to them

thankful
thankful
thankful

Thanksgiving.

Celebrated here twice daily.
Giving thanks twice daily for the wishful and giving thanks for what is.
Giving thanks twice daily for the boy with the eyes and giving thanks for being here.
Still.

Epic journey from birth to death

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Everybody and everything invests their energy and time to experience an epic journey between birth and death.

Free from restraints.

Full of abundance and joy.

Case in point, I’m writing this post on a rainy day from my office that’s part of my apartment in Switzerland. I wouldn’t do anything that meant I couldn’t spend my days here whenever I felt like it.

Do a bunch of sales calls and make an extra few Swiss Francs? Not if it meant I couldn’t be here at 10:30am on a Thursday morning.

So why is it that the majority of word-users talk about making more money?

Surely we should spend just as much of our energy and time thinking about our lifestyle –- using the money as a means to create the lifestyle of our dreams. As opposed to the other way round. Not unless you want your money to run your lifestyle.

I’m not saying you should optimise your journey in some horrid Tim Ferriss kind of way. All I’m saying is simply pursue the journey you’re already on in whatever damn way you decide.

In the past, I didn’t think like this

For many years, I was guided by something I wanted seemingly more than anything else.

More

Before I knew it, or so it seems now in hindsight, I couldn’t tell you what I wanted more of exactly.

I just wanted more.

Money, time, traffic, subscribers, writing, published books — more, more, more — it felt like the chains of additiction, too light to be felt until they are too heavy to be broken.

Not having learned active noticing yet, I turned a blind eye on the fact that more only got me into the habit of never being satisfied.

Perhaps it’s because I’m naturally ambitious, or because I never had any success or money growing up to write home about. Either way, I just got into the habit of always needing more overall.

This was a downward spiral, beyond the shadow of a doubt, as I was to find out just before it was too late to find out anything.

Never satisfied with anything is a bad place to be. Worse – because I hadn’t yet learned to envision a different future to aim for — there would never be an end to this curse of more.

When you always want more, how do you keep score?

As a result, I spent more years than I care to remember suffering from anxiety in different forms.

Follow your bliss

It was Joseph Campbell who first helped me resolve this, by talking about follow your bliss and that attachment is the root of all suffering

It took me a while to understand this.

Attachment to what?

Well, I eventually understood that to go from A to B, you must let go of A .

To follow your bliss, you must let go of what you’re attached to first.

It’s like a new bed. You’ve got to get rid of your old bed first.

What I eventually began to realise was that I thought of follow my bliss as something I would undertake in the future, just as soon as I was ready and just as long as no distractions were allowed to happen in between.

This lasted until I realised that the most important thing about the future is that it is not the present.

It follows that an epic journey of abundance and joy is right now, in the present.

Or to put it another way:

The present is the secret to abundance and joy

Only who is in the present exists eternally.

It takes accepting the world as it is, not as you wished it were, which cannot be done yesterday nor tomorrow. The present is the only way.

Now, I know that all sounds like a bunch of woo-woo nonsense.

But what I can tell you from personal experience, as opposed to from hearsay, is that I feel abundance and joy when I’m writing in my center of town office at 10:30am on a Thursday morning.

It’s easy to be present here.

It’s easy to accept the world as it is.

Wherever it is that you can be present — take it seriously

Don’t dismiss it.

On your journey, do whatever it takes to allow you to spend all your energy and time where you are right now as you’re reading these lines.

In the present.

You won’t regret it.

Just like you won’t regret reading “How to Outperform 99% of Social Media Users” and “The Magic of Vision”, my forthcoming books that will explain how all this is possible before the year is over.

Epic journey from birth to death

Everybody and everything invests their energy and time to experience an epic journey between birth and death.

Free from restraints.

Full of abundance and joy.

Case in point, I’m writing this post on a rainy day from my office that’s part of my apartment in Switzerland. I wouldn’t do anything that meant I couldn’t spend my days here whenever I felt like it.

Do a bunch of sales calls and make an extra few Swiss Francs? Not if it meant I couldn’t be here at 10:30am on a Thursday morning.

So why is it that the majority of word-users talk about making more money?

Surely we should spend just as much of our energy and time thinking about our lifestyle –- using the money as a means to create the lifestyle of our dreams. As opposed to the other way round. Not unless you want your money to run your lifestyle.

I’m not saying you should optimise your journey in some horrid Tim Ferriss kind of way. All I’m saying is simply pursue the journey you’re already on in whatever damn way you decide.

In the past, I didn’t think like this

For many years, I was guided by something I wanted seemingly more than anything else.

More

Before I knew it, or so it seems now in hindsight, I couldn’t tell you what I wanted more of exactly.

I just wanted more.

Money, time, traffic, subscribers, writing, published books — more, more, more — it felt like the chains of additiction, too light to be felt until they are too heavy to be broken.

Not having learned active noticing yet, I turned a blind eye on the fact that more only got me into the habit of never being satisfied.

Perhaps it’s because I’m naturally ambitious, or because I never had any success or money growing up to write home about. Either way, I just got into the habit of always needing more overall.

This was a downward spiral, beyond the shadow of a doubt, as I was to find out just before it was too late to find out anything.

Never satisfied with anything is a bad place to be. Worse – because I hadn’t yet learned to envision a different future to aim for — there would never be an end to this curse of more.

When you always want more, how do you keep score?

As a result, I spent more years than I care to remember suffering from anxiety in different forms.

Follow your bliss

It was Joseph Campbell who first helped me resolve this, by talking about follow your bliss and that attachment is the root of all suffering

It took me a while to understand this.

Attachment to what?

Well, I eventually understood that to go from A to B, you must let go of A .

To follow your bliss, you must let go of what you’re attached to first.

It’s like a new bed. You’ve got to get rid of your old bed first.

What I eventually began to realise was that I thought of follow my bliss as something I would undertake in the future, just as soon as I was ready and just as long as no distractions were allowed to happen in between.

This lasted until I realised that the most important thing about the future is that it is not the present.

It follows that an epic journey of abundance and joy is right now, in the present.

Or to put it another way:

The present is the secret to abundance and joy

Only who is in the present exists eternally.

It takes accepting the world as it is, not as you wished it were, which cannot be done yesterday nor tomorrow. The present is the only way.

Now, I know that all sounds like a bunch of woo-woo nonsense.

But what I can tell you from personal experience, as opposed to from hearsay, is that I feel abundance and joy when I’m writing in my center of town office at 10:30am on a Thursday morning.

It’s easy to be present here.

It’s easy to accept the world as it is.

Wherever it is that you can be present — take it seriously

Don’t dismiss it.

On your journey, do whatever it takes to allow you to spend all your energy and time where you are right now as you’re reading these lines.

In the present.

You won’t regret it.

Just like you won’t regret reading “How to Outperform 99% of Social Media Users” and “The Magic of Vision”, my forthcoming books that will explain how all this is possible before the year is over.